MY GRATITUDE

I wanted to write today about how very much I love my life. It seemed necessary in light of all the things I have said that makes my life seem very difficult or trying, or depressing even. As some of you know, I like to use facebook to stay in touch. On there, I have seen some of my friends who have HUNDREDS of facebook friends in their accounts. I don't. I am in the twenty-something range, and I have been thinking about the blessings of my life, and how truly wonderful I feel about what I do have. Any of those friends would have my back in a minute--all of them make me laugh. All give me "air hugs" with their messages and encouragements and every one of my friends (my true friends!) makes this life easier, and better and more connected for me. I have a very blessed life, no matter how it compares to anyone else's.

Dating has been an interesting road. I took a long time (it felt like a long time?) to wait to look for marriage-material after my divorce. I needed to focus on the children, and on my heart and on my priorities. I needed to think I was bringing the best me to the table, and I wanted to find what I thought made me better--the tools and motivations that would indeed bring me to my best. I focused on the spirit, and on charity work and on just finding out what makes me happy and sad and motivated and angry-all on my own, with no other "other" to blame any of those things on. Joe, is amazing. He is balanced and so so thoughtful and patient and asks me to be emotionally invested in my every day. He encourages the parts of me that love God and he makes me thankful for my family, just by reminding me how wonderful they are. I have only seen him mad, and maybe not even THAT mad once. What a godsend. I was tired of fighting. Of feeling small. He's never made me feel small--and never given me grief about getting large, hee hee.

My friends are wonderful, and I feel safer on this earthly journey because I have them! But to have love...now that's heavenly. I just wanted to take a moment to share with Joe and with you, how thankful I am. My daily prayer is to always find one thing to improve on, and every chance to give back for what I have.

Thank you God for my life, my children, my friends, and my Joe. May I serve them as they serve me--may I feed them as they have fed me. May I take their blessings beside my hands as I work in service--they make me better, as I work to be the best me....

(hugs!)